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After my mope a while ago, thinking I hadn't got a picture in the local art summer exhibition, I found out I had after all!  Not only THAT, but they've used MY picture, Tokyo Shide ( here:  ) as the exhibition banner!!!

www.artrix.co.uk/Exhibitions/A…

SO excited!

And yes, Nuclear Jackal, I still thank you for cheering me up way back ^_^

Thanks for listening and letting me moan - wise words <3

I had reasonably hopeful hopes that I might get something in a local art exhibition, but I've not heard anything and it's well past the closing date, so looks like I'm not going to be lucky there.  

It's not for want of trying, but I feel rather deflated just now and a bit 'meh'.  I know I shouldn't, and it's just one thing, but it feels as though it's ALWAYS been 'just one thing'.  I really do feel fed up - it's been a draining and extremely difficult time for spouse, work-wise, finances as always are stupidly tight and I would love to have ONE thing in an exhibition, just to feel that my creativity is 'worth it'.

I KNOW that it should be worth it for me, and usually it is, but I think I'm just feeling a bit crappy right now, and that of course MAKES me feel less than creative - vicious bloody circle!

My creative side has taken a bit of a back seat just recently, because of pretty awesome personal stuff, I found my missing sister!  I knew about her for quite some time, but hadn't had any luck in finding her until a couple of weeks ago!  I have to thank Facebook for it, believe it or not, as she'd created a profile and since her name is slightly unusual I was able to track her down.  We've since texted, talked and then met up last week in town!  

It's not every day you find long, long lost relatives you've never met before!

But sometimes I wonder why I even bother to try to be creative.  All I hope for is a bit of encouragement from the person who is SUPPOSED to understand my ridiculous insecurities and sense of inadequacy about what I do.  I didn't ask for a critique on the current wip, I just wanted to show what I'd been doing all day, so thanks a bunch for the 'helpful comments' on an unfinished piece,which is now likely to stay that way.